Today is Goal Day! 165.0 lbs!

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. The most significant things I can remember taking place during my “absence” is that I realized ANYTHING is possible you may just have to put more effort into it to make it happen.

For some reason I was having this crazy mental block that getting to my figure comp. goal might not be possible, as in physically possible. As if somehow my body, regardless of what I did would just stop at some magic number each week. Don’t even ask me why I went there, but I did.

I got extremely upset and down about it, viewing myself as a failure. It was like, I knew I could compete; it just wasn’t going to be when I wanted to. Making me a failure? That same week I was in the dumps, and feeling sorry for myself (maybe partially hormonal as well) I watched The Biggest Loser Finale. It hit me at that moment, “Uhhhhh…. It’s TOTALLY POSSIBLE! It’s just a matter of how much and how hard do I want to work to get there by that date.”

I have a friend that decided to compete in bodybuilding after losing a significant amount of weight. She competed that same weekend and what she came back to say floored me. She said she was disappointed in herself and that she didn’t know if she ever wanted to do it again. Let me tell ya… she came in 3rd place. To her 3rd place was a slap in the face because there were only 3 competitors, including her. I slapped her back into reality with the simple fact that 3 women stood up there on stage. Count them…. 3!! She deserved that trophy!

What I saw in my words is that I also have those negative tendencies – to belittle what I’ve accomplished as not so big. If anyone could even see the changes in my life and the people around me… it’s HUGE! So much bigger than “losing some weight”. Her experience came at the right time for me though. Because I realized when I stand on that stage with these women I separate myself from, 100+lbs lighter, with hours logged in the gym, planning and surviving food and temptations, and other sacrifices, like sleeping in some days, I will have already won!

I finally clicked that switch on inside that’s sending messages of “anything is possible”. I used to say it, but I really feel it now. I may still have my ups and downs, but in the back of my mind I know it depends on what I can motivate myself to do. It’s all there for the taking.

So onwards...