I had a revelation this weekend.  Last week, during the entire week I was up by over 3lbs!  It was tickin' me off because I was doing "everything" right.  Obviously not, right?  Well, I kept wanting to blame it on TOM, but I couldn't bring myself to accept that.  Just my gut speaking to me.  Ya know, all this time I've thought I trusted myself, but it turns out I don't.  Yeah, go figure, right? 

I was finally able to quiet myself and listen to myself - really listen.  And what I came up with was, I'm not eating enough.  So I raised my calories!  Then it dawned on me last night that I didn't get any help figuring this out.  And I usually mull over it, ask for opinions, try to analyze, etc.  This time I didn't do that (as much).  I just listened to myself and acted.  So now I can see what everyone is always talking about with me - too much thinking but no action.  That's never been the way I see it, but I did this weekend.  A moment of enlightment for me.  Very interesting. 

Oh, and I was right.  I raised my calories and I've lost every day.  I'm back down to 170, with 1 more lb to go to reach last week's weight.  I'm also putting trust in Mark.  He's told me that losing 50lbs in 2 months is nothing.  He's done it plenty of time preparing for competions.  I don't like that idea at ALL, but my point is that these little "set backs" of 2 lbs here and there won't leave me with 50lbs to lose in 2 months.  They may be small amounts that Mark will have the tools for me to catch up and help me meet my goals.  I will put this worry in Mark's hands when the time comes, if necessary.  It's water anyway.  It shouldn't be hard to get rid of when I AM doing everything right.