Day 31 of 56! 25 more to go! More than 1/2 way there! Only 3 more weeks left after Monday. By making it through the first 4 weeks, I've already proven to myself I can make it through the next 4 weeks, which is now 3, less than 4, more than 1/2 way, I can do this... I can do this... I can do this...

Yeah, that's me talking myself into the next 25 days! 25... 31... 56... Yeah, I'll go with the 25 please. Lord, I'm in that fake it 'til you make it zone. You know, that mode you are forced in to make it to your goals when all other motivation seems to have flown out the window?? Although sometimes it seems that it takes motivation just to be in the faking zone.

I swear, I have no idea how I am making it out of bed in the mornings. First off, I hate the elliptical and second, I'm not a morning person. So the fact that I'm making on that elliptical without fail, on top of being in fake it 'til you make it mode, keeps surprising me - morning after morning, after morning. I do have to say, somehow it's strangely the only motivation I seem to have right now. The fact that I'm actually proud of myself for just doing it despite all other desires right now.

Yesterday I found myself waking up just to find that I had been hitting snooze while I was half asleep, mostly asleep. I knew if I got up then I would be late to help my girls get ready for school. Plus, let's face it, I was tired and really just wanted to sleep, and that was a pretty slick excuse. :) So I grabbed my alarm, reset it for 50 min. later, and lay back down. 30 seconds later I found myself popping out of bed, turning off the alarm, and getting dressed.

I had convinced myself that I could have my girls help each other, and I could just shout orders at them on the elliptical. They're old enough to get ready on their own, and usually don't need my help anyway. But somehow I was able to magically convince myself that I should get up and "just do it".

Turns out my girls were up early, ready earlier, and I even had time to clean up a bit before heading out the door – actually… that day was quite a productive day. That works to motivate me for next time because I was proud that, for such strong feelings of wanting to SLEEP, I chose against it. Even after I made some pretty good excuses. ;)

I think Mission How Bad do You Want This is proving just that… how bad I do! I’m pulling motivation out of thin air. Okay, not really – yet. But when I figure that out I’ll let you know how to do it. Although pulling motivation from the places I would least expect them is taking place. Forward I roll…..>>>>