I survived another day. I found today difficult, but now that I've refocused I can see what happened.

I got up to my alarm clock going off at 5:40 AM. Okay, technically I didn't "get up", I just opened my eyes. I started my normal conversations in order to convince myself there MUST be something wrong with me to want to get up at this time. I was actually able to talk myself into resetting my clock for another hour of sleep. I lay there for another 3 minutes before I B**** slapped myself with the "OWN IT", "JUST DO IT", and "NO EXCUSES" mentality.

I reached over and turned off my alarm. Popped out of bed and got ready for my 60 min. cardio. I was only 6 minutes late. :)

The rest of the day I'm having the feeling that it would just be easier to NOT eat than to eat what I have to eat. I spent most of the day in my head - having conversations with myself. ;) I just can NOT allow myself to give in. There's a part of me that just has to do this. I kept telling myself, I DO have what it takes, I just have to put forth more of an effort than I'm used to. I know I have this within me. I've seen myself do some pretty amazing things in the last year.

I grabbed a little moral support from friends and family as the day passed. They all reminded me of what I already knew - maybe I just had to hear someone else say it.

I found myself side tracked by painting my nails and guiding my children in how to clean their rooms. That helped with the cravings I had been having. That's about when I realized I still have some emotional eating that happens. It's been so minute that I haven't seen it. Very interesting. I also found that finding something to do will be very helpful when I'm having tough moments. I need to find more hobbies. :)

I also had a reminder of some reasons I do have an urge to eat, unrelated to hunger - being thirsty, bored, and TIRED! Sometimes just the power of knowledge is enough to get by.

4 of 56 days complete! 52 days to go!