Weight - 187.8 (new low!)

Before I jump into what we did last night I wanted to add, I don't know WHY i'm not so thrilled about that weight this morning. Tomorrow is official WID, but I think my gears might actually be switching now that I move closer to my goal. Could it be I'm beginning to detach from the scale?

This week was yet another eye-opener for noticing changes in things other than the scale. I noticed fat folds that have disappeared, others that are noticeably smaller and my calves are becoming more lean than I've ever seen them. My arms are showing more and more definition and I can grab less "bye-bye arm". I have to make mention of the fact that, even though I’m not back to my previous low from my earlier years, I’m at a whole new level of fitness and leanness. I have much more muscle and it’s showing through like never before. All of this seems to be out weighing that scale. ;)

Workout last night was BEAUTIFUL! Loved it. I’m really starting to trust Mark a lot more and his suggestions, even if I have my freak outs now and again.

Mark looked over my food log and said, yes, the pizza from the cheat meal would make me retain some water. I just KNEW he would tell me to stop the cheat meals when he saw that I had gained 3 lbs, actually hoping he would, but instead he said continue with them. He said it’s only water, you are just playing mind games with yourself. I said I’d continue, but I’m only giving it 2 weeks before I start bit**ing at him. I didn’t see the point in spending the whole week trying to break even again. He told me I had to give it longer than that – 3 weeks. I agreed. So that’s where we are.

I do have to say something strange may be taking place by being told by my trainer (one of experience, intelligence, and knowledge – trained) that I can (allowed, granted permission) eat these “forbidden” foods. Like I’m being freed from a prison I’ve trapped myself in for many, many years. It seems to make my relationship with food a healthy one. Crazy mental games.

So on to the workout…

LB

Superset x5
A1. Leg Extensions

Warm up set each leg - 25lbs x 15
Set 2 - (both legs) 50lbs x 15
Set 3 - 70lbs x 15
Set 4 - 100lbs x 15
Set 5 - 70lbs x 40 (10 reps, hold for 3 sec. repeat 4x)

A2. Walking Lunges w/ Reverse Walking Lunges

Set 1 & 2 – 12 both ways body weight
Set 3-5 – 12 both ways 2x15lb DBs (set 5 I took a couple extra steps in reverse as he smiled at me – ooops.)

Superset x4
B1. Plate Weighted Diagonal Leg Press

Set 1 & 2 – alternating toes/feet neutral x10, toes out feet out x10 repeat 4x = 40 reps - 90lbs (135lbs including rack)
Set 3& 4 – 140lbs (185lbs including rack - some assistance at end)

B2. Cross-Over Lunges

Set 1 – 10x each leg body weight
Set 2-4 – 10x each leg 2x 8lb DBs

One Set
C1. Lying Hamstring Curls – 30x 50lbs

I really loved this workout, I enjoy leg workouts. Hell, at this point I enjoy it all, but I’ve always liked working my legs. I love the warm burn I get in them – it’s relaxing.

Sooooooooo... Mark says he really wants to see me 3x a week. He says he just knows he could get me to the next level since he knows my ultimate goal. Is he getting excited? Or is he thinking $$?? I’m bad, but my radars are on, I haven’t gained full trust with him yet – I’m working on that. I’m so bad. I’m thinking… I can do most of these workouts on my. I’ve made it to a new level within myself as well. That is, my mind is stronger when it comes to training. I can push myself further than before. What is it that he can do that I can’t, as far as my workouts? And if he felt that I needed him why couldn’t he write me a routine? He admits I’m more advanced than just needing 2 sessions a week – he says I need at least 3. I agree, but I also feel I’m advanced enough to handle those other 1 or 2 on my own. Besides, all this time away, when I have a “gym” at home, is interfering with my marriage. I’ve got to find some compromise.

5-6pm was ST with Mark then I waited an hour and half and went to spin class. In between I had my BCAAs, protein and an all natural applesauce. 45 min. of spin was great! I was afraid how I would handle it with my legs being completely exhausted, but I thoroughly enjoyed it, other than the poor selection of music. Who am I? :)

Today I find it interesting that I’m choosing what my cheat meal will be tomorrow. Something still very weird about all this. 2 more weeks. ;)