Chapter .... Ahhh he**, I've lost track!

I have to be honest with myself here and I guess that's another lesson I'm being taught. I realize that when life throws something my way I tend to get in the way and interfere instead of letting things unfold naturally - so to speak.

For instance, with the situation of me losing my trainer. I'm so busy fighting it I can't see that there is another trainer that might possibly be better for me, and paticularly my goals. Even as I type that I'm feeling guilty for feeling this and trying to suppress it.

At the same time, if I hadn't have been fighting this so much would I have ever found that out? Who knows. But I'm starting to see so much about myself and things I need to admit to and work on.

Here's the cool thing. As far as I've come, I can look back and see this journey unfolding in a way I never would have suspected. After all, I just wanted to lose some weight. ;) It's magical in a way. Being able to look back shows me that I'm still in the middle of the journey and more great things are sure to come my way. Knowing this is how I keep the spark lit.

Life... BRING IT ON! :)